This interview was originally published by The Plotline on September 30, 2011.
I created Special Agent Kathrin Night in 1986. She graduated from the Naval Academy in Annapolis in 1994, and has worked for (officially and in some cases unofficially) MI6, Naval Intelligence, the FBI, CIA, NYPD and the BITA (investigative arm of the United Nations Security Council).
I could tell there was going to be trouble when I walked into the room. Her dark lashes gave her amber eyes a sort of otherworldly gleam. Maybe it was just the lighting. I studied her; as always, her hair was perfect, shiny, wavy, wildâŚlooking touchable and seductive. Such smooth skin on her strong jawâŚI couldnât help but stare at my creation. Beautiful, tough, and complex: she was more like a warrior than anything else. I felt badly that Iâd put her through everything I had in three books â with many more to come. Shattering her ankle and taking her out of active service now seemed cruel. I suddenly felt guilty.
âSpecial Agent Night,â I smiled, having a seat across from her.
âAuthor,â she replied.
âAuthorâŚâ I repeated, sort of disappointed sheâd been so impersonal.
âYou donât like that.â
âItâs not about what I like, really.â
âWell, you know I donât care for doing interviews,â she said quite factually.
âI know. I appreciate that you came.â
âI didnât think I had much of a choice.â She raised her right eyebrow.
That eyebrow told me everything I needed to know. She was now in control.
âSo,â Agent Night said, cocking her head slightly to the left, âI have some questions.â
âOkay, shoot,â I replied, realizing shoot was not a wise word to say to a trigger-happy character. âI mean, go aheadâŚask away.â
She took a momentâŚmost likely to profile me: evaluating my jewelry, my make-up, and my posture before she spoke. âYou donât seem to have a confidence issue.â
âThatâs not a question.â
âTrue.â A twinge of a smile appeared, then disappeared as quickly. âDo you feel threatened by me?â
âOn the contrary. I have a great fondness for you.â
âThen why are you constantly beating theâŚdaylights out of me in our books?â
âItâs not like that.â
âCome on â over the course of three books and a pending sequel, youâve practically drowned me, thrown me out of an airplane, bashed my head into a concrete floor, tried to strangle me, had me standing on an improvised explosive deviceâŚyouâve left me in the desert to die, had me beaten and tortured andâŚâ
I needed to slow her down. âWhoaâŚwait a minuteâŚI donât do anything to you that I know you canât handle.â
âHandle? And then you send me to a shrink. What exactly is that all about? And the flashbacksâŚI almost forgot about those.â Her eyes were narrowed and fiery.
âListen, Iâm very careful about what I do to you. I have faith that no matter what I throw at you, youâll find a way to rise above it. You havenât let me down yet.â She still looked angry â more like âseemedâ angry since no one could ever see through her Poker face. âI actually try some of the things I do to you to make sure you can get out of them. Iâve had to tone down a couple because they were too dangerous.â
That eyebrow went up again. âTone down? Really. Like what?â
âLike in the Nubian desert. I was going to have them tie your feet to your hands, then your hands to your neck, so that if you tried to get free, it would choke you.â
âYou DID do that,â she interrupted.
âRight, but I was going to have them tie a plastic bag over your head as well.â
âI would have been dead.â
âI know thatâŚnow. I had thought you could tear the bag open with your teeth, until I tried it myself, that is. Having that bag tied over my head was terrifyingâŚthere was no way to grip it with my teeth, and I couldnât get the rope untied before Iâd run out of air.â
âI didnât realize youâd tried that.â
âYeah,â I nodded.
âWhatâs the deal with the Russian?â she asked without warning.
I couldnât believe it. âThe Russian? Thatâs what you call him?â
She reconsidered the reference to her lover. âAleksey. Whatâs the deal?â
I shook my head. âHeâs your partner. Domestic and otherwise. Iâm not sure I understand your question.â
âYou have a habit of taking away whatever you give me.â She paused. âI kind of like having him around.â
I smiled. It was her way of asking me not to kill him off. She was growing to love him, as Iâd hoped. I was glad. I really did want her to be happy. âHeâs good for you.â I could sense she was thinking about his bright smile, his turquoise eyes and his sculpted physique. At least I knew I was. He truly was a catch.
She moved on to the next subject like she had a list in her head. âHow much do you and I have in common?â
âAs time goes on,â I smiled, ânot too much. Weâll both always believe in doing whatâs right, in seeing justice served.â I tried to think of other things, but she was so much more than I could ever be. âIâm sorry if you thought I was beating you up. I have to make things realistic.â
âItâs part of the job.â
âExactly.â
âI just wanted to understand your motivation behind it. Iâd rather have things that way than be a coward.â
She was always strong, always determined, and I was proud of her. âI hope you can enjoy Aleksey. And I hope you can appreciate Doctor Scully.â
âScullyâŚâ she sneered. âWhy are you wasting my time by sending me to a shrink?â
âIâve put you through a lot. You donât even realize some of the things that happened to you in your childhood. Dr. Scully can help you with all of that, if youâll let her.â
âYou know I have trust issues.â
âYeah, I know that. But I also know youâll figure out who to trust when the time is right.â
She took a breath. âFalling from that cliff in AfghanistanâŚand shattering my ankleâŚthose things happen in my line of work. The assailant wonât kill anyone else, and Iâm walking better than anyone expected. Sometimes I canât even tell I was injured. The pain doesnât bother me. But not workingâŚwell, I have a hard time with that.â
âI understand. But sometimes things happen for a reason. Sometimes people get on the wrong track and they need something monumental to get them onto the right one.â
âHow is fighting terrorism the âwrong trackâ?â
âIt was starting to suck the life out of you,â I explained.
âAm I going to get my career back?â Before I could answer, she said, âI want to rephrase the question. Are you going to continue to dangle carrots in front of me or are you going to let me do what Iâm made to do?â
âYes.â I knew toying with her was dangerous. But for some strange reason, I couldnât resist.
âTo the latter?â
âYes,â I smiled, finally giving her something. I owed her that.
âThank you,â she actually smiled back. But I knew the smile wasnât for me. It was because she was glad she was going to be fighting injustice again. It was, after all, her life.
âFor the answer or for letting you get âback on trackâ?â
âYes,â she said, and quite glibly at that. Then her face changed, a sort of satisfaction came over it. âI just thought of another way weâre alike. Neither one of us seems to âplay well with othersâ.â
She was right about that. I got the feeling that the interview was almost over. I wanted to hug her, but that kind of thing would only make her feel awkward. And Iâd already done enough to her. I wanted to tell her that I was always with her, but she didnât need that kind of reinforcement â sheâd probably roll her eyes at it. What could I say before we parted ways that would let her know how much I admired her? I was a big wuss, and she was a rock.
âHey, writer lady,â she said with a single nod, âare we done here? I have a hockey game to get to.â
âYou donât have any other questions for me?â
She blinked. âYes, one more actually.â A pause preceded, âIs your life as good as mine?â
I was flabbergasted: paralysed by so many thoughts that they morphed into blankness. âWhat?â I said with nearly a double-take.
âOther than my ankle, Iâm in excellent physical condition, I do basically whatever I want, Iâm extremely comfortable financially, I have a fantastic mountain home on the West Coast and my penthouse in New York CityâŚand the only thing I really have to worry about is going back to work. Do you have it that well?â
âWhy do you ask?â I really didnât know what else to say, and that kind of popped out.
âYour shoes are quite worn which tells me that you canât afford new ones. The skin on the tops of your hands looks dry, and your fingernails arenât all the same length, indicating that you do chores, wash your hands a lot and donât take the time to take care of them. Your eyelids have a tinge of yellow â so your liver isnât as healthy as it should be. You look tired, and borderline anemic.â She cocked her head, and those waves of silken brown hair shone gold under the overhead lights.
She was an amazing profiler. Everything she said was spot on. âNo. I donât have quite the life you do.â
âIâm sorry to hear that,â she replied after studying me for a moment longer. âTake care of that liver. Iâve got more for you to document.â
âThat you do,â I smiled, knowing in her own indubitable way, what she was really trying to say. âTell Aleksey I said hello.â
âI will. And please thank Rose for this opportunity to go one-on-one with you. Iâd originally thought it was a bad idea, but it worked out.â She effortlessly pushed herself up from the chair and headed towards the door.
Although I constantly hear her voice in my head, seeing her in this way was so different. I wanted to say or do somethingâŚthe âjust rightâ thing⌠more for me than for her. Her sophistication made me feel like a dork in comparison. âSpecial Agent Night,â I blurted as she opened the door.
She turned slightly and looked at me. I stood, straightening my posture as tall as I could, then gave her my best possible Navy salute. âItâs an honor to know you.â
âLikewise,â she said, saluting back. And then she was gone.